april twentyninth, twenty-ten.

hey guys..(:
so hm, i haven't written in a while..and guess what? lots has happened.
i guess first off, we'll go with; i am single.
i broke up with martin..:/ it wasn't easy, but i had to. for the good of both of us.
but, guess what? everyone was assholes about it.
stupid jose called me a bitch.
and everyone was questioning me, i was so upset as it was, then they all had to make it worse.
but whatever, it's better now, and i think i made the right decision for both of us.

lets see what else.
i finished a ring today in art class, it's pretty g.
i like it.(: too bad i can't wear it, because i made it too big for my fingers. :/
silly mandra. that's okay, i'mma give it to kalee. she likes it.(:

hm, oh i think i like this guy..but it's bad..
i am not allowed to like him..it's bad bad bad.
:/ :/ :/
yeahhhh, but i can't help it.

uhm. i am really tired.
yeah.
i'mma go now. ha ha.
ooh,
hi jonathan&gigi.(:

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april eighteenth, twenty-ten.

hey, its sundayyyy.!
and guess what?? MANDRA GETS TO SEE MARTIN TOMORROW!
yayayayyayyyayayaya, i's a happy camper. because i miss him a lot.
a whole freakinn' lot.
(: (:

so, hm. this week sucked. i was sick all week. please, don't ask. it's a long goddamn story.

but yeah, so i didn't go to school on friday, cuz i was sick.
and saturday, taylor came over, and we went swimming.
for like, five minutes, then we layed outside. in the sunshine that has finally decided to shine upon utah.
then we tried for like half an hour to get a picture of us jumping off this ledge.
and we finally got one.
but today, my legs hurt like crazy from climbing up and jumping down so many times.

but yeah. and today, i made pansans. they was yummy.

so, i need do my laundry, but i don't think there is any laundry soap, and that sucks. a lot.

damn.

hm.
oh yeah, hi jonathan.(:

yeah, i am done!

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april thirteenth, twenty-ten.

hola. como estas?(:
ha ha, no. i can't speak mexican, even though i wish i could!

guess what..? martin left me.):
i mean, not dumped, just left the state. he is in fukinn' illinois. like, wtf.
he's there playing hockey.. i mean, i am happy for him and shiz, but i misses him.):

hm. you know how down there i said i had been talking to someone that i shouldn't...
well, i saw him yesterday, he came over to tell me he had court today, and he might get locked up. :/
i don't want that..but yeah, he was freakin' out all upset and whatnot. made me cry.. he had court at nine this morning, and i haven't heard from him, so i hope everything is okay.. i miss him. and i know i shouldn't. but god, we have a history. :/

and i think i miss someone else too, but i don't want to! i hate him, i do. i hate how immature he is, and i hate everything about him, but something is keeping me there.
something is making me stick. i hate it!
god. fml.

i want martin. now. :/

lksfgldkgl;kdfglkdfjg
GOD.

anyway. on a happier note... i love mayday parade. they are the shit.

and, uhm. jonathan told me he reads my blogs everyday.
so, hi jonathan.(:
lol, at least someone reads them. so i am not just typing to myself.
jonathan was trying to tickle me today, weren't you jon..you think you are quick. I AM!(:
ha ha. i love you mann.(:

so. hm. did i tell you i gotted kittens??
they is so cute. marley&moxie.
i'll post a pictureee.

i'm out!
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april eighth, twenty-ten.

check it, yo. i'm back!(:
you missed me, i know it. jaykay, dawg.

so uhm, guess what, i found a sick new band. called black veil brides. dude, they are amazing. and the lead singer, andy sixx, is fukinn' gorgeous. like, he is so sexyy, there isn't words to describe it.
i wanna do illegal things to him.

so hm. what's been going on with me lately..
nothing really.. there hasn't been much drama lately, thank god.
well, there has been with miss taylorlynn.
this douchebag dragged her in, then left her hangin' like a fukinn' fish out of water. stupid mofo. i hate him for hurting her. GOD.

hm. me&maritn are good. incase you were wondering.. i love himm.(:

yeah...so.
shizz.
I DROVE ON THE FREEWAY. go mandra.

i have been talking to someone i shouldn't be lately.
it's scaring me. i hate it.
i need to stop. it just makes me cry anyway.
^^^ don't ask..

i have a new best guy friend.
i mean, not new. but newly my best guy friend. lol.
its ROCKY! i love that kid mann, i can trust him, and i can talk to him about stuff.
makes me happy.(:

but yeahh.
i suppose i am done here.(:
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april first, twenty-ten.

it's april. and guess what is outside my house?
SNOW. seven motherfukin inches of it. wtf.
not only is is spring break, it is fukin APRIL. like, seriously mother nature? can you give it a break? take your stupid snow somewhere else.
god. it really makes me mad. like, a lot.

but whatevz.
i am leaving tomorrow. to go to nevada, and i must say, i am quite excited. i want to leave utah, bad.
i get a kitten!(:
i excited, but i told you that already.

so hm. i hung out at rocky and me'chelle's house yesterday, and the day before, with martin and everyone.
it was fun.(:

uhm. so. taylor refuses to talk to me.. it's kind of making me sad.
and, i have been trying to hang out with kalee for like ever, and everytime, something happens so we can't, that is also making me sad. lol.

and uhm. yeah, the snow, that is killing my vibe.

shizz, yo. i'm going crazy today. i really am. like, yeah.

so like. shit, i don't fukkin know.
i am bored. BLAH!

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march twentyseventh, twenty-ten.

i don't like the date these days. there's too many 'twentys', it's quite annoying.
anyway, my fingers are cold. they always are when i'm on the computer, because my basement is freezing.
and no one seems to wanna fix it for me, so i freeze also. lame, i know.

taylor slept over last night and jamie came over from like..ten thirty till midnight. he fukin spit on my floor, i almost punched him in the face.
don't invite yourself to my house, and not respect my property. god, asshole.
well, that's okay, he's just a freak.

uhm. martin is coming over tongiht.(:
i don't know how long he can stay tho, since he's not coming till eight, and my mom won't wanna take him all late at night, but whatevz, at least i getta see him.(:

uhm. i am hungry. and i cleaned my room today.
OH, i might get a kittten. and i'mma name it chessy.(:
like the cheshire cat. cuz, i am cool like that.(:

so yeah. i'mma go eat!

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march twentyfourth, twenty-ten.

GUESS WHO'S BIRTHDAY IT IS TODAY....no, not mine.
ME'CHELLE'S! she's seventeeeen!
yeah, i just thought i'd let you know...(:

i am totally listening to lil wayne. because i love him.
and i would do illegal things to him.. but ssh.(:
shawty wanna thug,,bottles in the club..
mm, oh yeah. i fukin love him.

so, today, i was dancing. i was doing the re-reject.(:
and i was dippin' and pindropping, not well, but you know, i was still doing it.(:
i tried to teach little lew how to jerk, but he's to wittle.(:

martin is coming over on saturdayyy.
tomorrow is thursday, and i have a spanish test, and i getta drive.
i want a car. bad.

hm. me and tay made new friends on the bus today,, named colby, richard, and some other kid..i don't remember his name..oops..
but they was cool. and we sang for them. lol.

mhm, yeah.
byezz!

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